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CN: codeine drama, gender issues (non-binary)

 

So many things, so tired.

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Sometimes ‘funny’ is the only word

CN: discrimination moar codeine drama, stigma due to mental health/gender

Remember this? The doctor firing me after I walked out after being told I couldn’t have the script I was already told would be provided, and not being allowed to talk?

 

So I complained about it.

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Risk

CN: moar codeine drama; gender-nonconformi-ness and medical care, mention of genital-related medical issues

 

I saw a different doctor at the same practice. He was nice, apart from two things

  • the guilt trip and ‘you know the risks’ talk, when by now if they really think I don’t know that medications have risks, they should be sending me for a capacity assessment…
  • ‘she’ and ‘Miss’

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i am crushed

CN: moar codeine drama, discrimination, disability, medical stuffs as gender non conforming

 

I got home from the doctors two hours ago and I have not stopped shaking and cannot seem to stop myself from crying. I am, I think, in shock.

 

 

Yesterday I was planning to go visit my parents for the long weekend.

Now I’m not sure I’ll ever see them again.

 

It wasn’t a great day anyway, owing to an incident in the post office where I went to collect a parcel and they gave it to someone else, who then dumped it on the floor, kept saying it was theirs, and the post office clerk spoke to me like I was two – you know how people are with disabled people, when they speak slow and their voice goes up and they use simple words. I had to get down on the floor and pick up a box, oh, about the size of a television. Nobody apologised to me. I don’t do well with people touching my things in any case, but this was simply horrid. And then a man followed me out, yelling ‘can you manage’ and trapped me between him and the door. It was not the best foundation.

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before and after

CN: medical care with gender non-conforming body, disability, accomodating disability and medical procedures, mentions of sexual boundaries being violated, body image issues 

So the MRI went as well as I expected – that is to say, not well. I was not allowed to lie on my side as I asked and so, apart from running out to get meds the day after (which was not fun and extremely difficult for me, to the point that random strangers insisted on ‘helping’ and making things worse) I have been stuck at home all week, not able to cook for myself, walk unsupported, shower, stay awake, or see unimpeded. It has been six days and my legs and feet are still burning, my back still aches, and the band pain kicked in last night, so at least I know it’s peaked now.

 

But on Tuesday I have to have an ECG (electrocardiogram). My echocardiogram from 2014 has gotten lost to the annals of time, and the doctor who ordered it is about as good at sending records as he is at diagnosing chronic pain, so it’s as good as never having existed, except for the utterly dehumanising experience burned into my memory and the report which I know I saw.

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This is what i have to put up with…

CN: medical stuff re:pain, gender issues, gender-affirming surgery, medication, discrimination, addiction

 

Right, well. Reminder! If you take codeine OTC and you’re reading this from Australia, tomorrow is your last day to get some. You probably will have to shop around, though, so if you’re like me and that would be much better done with assistance, plan for it. Why? Because in anticipation of the schedule change, many pharmacies have run out of Nurofen Plus and Panadeine.

As you know, I’m of the opinion that this is the least great idea ever had by the government and the TGA, since as I said, it takes away people’s ability to manage their own pain and forces more work onto doctors while they’re actively trying to get rid of it (and being underpaid, because of Medicare freezes, naturally).

 

There’s another reason for that than the ones I’ve already discussed in previous posts.

 

This one is called bias, or, as I prefer to call it, the twofold societal assumption that everyone who needs pain medication is a drug addict and that pain medication is never necessary for quality of life.

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